09.05.2004
a happy end to a bad week
dear diary;
well this week has been very..hmm i dont even know if theres a word for it. lately i feel like that ive just been disappointing so many people in my family. letsee i got yelled at by my grandma on wednesday because ingrid & i made her wait fifteen minutes when she came to pick us up, im not going to go into detail because i just dont feel like it. ive been getting yelled at by my mom for little things. well thats not really anything new but yea shes just been doing that a lot this week. i talked to my aunt about whats been going on & she was telling all this stuff. basically she was saying i disappointed her because of what i did to my grandma & other things that she found out. last night i had myself a good cry after having a really good day with my parents. how ironic eh? i just let it all out last night because i couldnt take things anymore. i was pissed at my mom, my dad, i was just pissed at life. i wanted to die last night i really didnt give a fck anymore. i was just thinking about how overprotected i am & how ferked up my mom can be sometimes. blah i dont want to get into it because im just going to start feeling sad & pissed again. i talked to michelle about it & it made me feel so much better after talking to her. i told her everything i was feeling because yea thats how i get things out by talking to someone. im not the type of person who can just sit there & keep all my emotions bottled up inside of me. i have to talk to someone. michelley & i had a good talk. we were talking about how crappy our mother/daughter relationships are & just family relationships in general. it felt good to talk to someone about it. i didnt want to hang up the phone last night becuase we were just having a good conversation but then i had to go becuase my parents came home & they probably would have yelled at me for being on the phone so late. hah nothing new there. chelle you are such a great friend, thanks for listening to my problemos & just thanks for everything! lol im always here for you! (=
okay enough of that stuff. im finally happy becuase im going to marine world tomorow with maricris! yay! (= i talked to my dad about it today & he was like yeeeess you can go so that made my day i just have to finish my homework. hah. okay well i have to get going on that stuff. til later. byeee
--4:22 PM
♥naevon