04.11.2005
wouldn't it be nice?
dear diary;
im bored..and i miss my love =/ i cant wait to see him (; got a surprise phone call from bub..tsk tsk she was in dancee class changing...all i heard in the background was "im telling naevon!" haha wtf weirdooos =P talked to love this morning before the nerd had to go to schoolio...watched white oleander with the cousing and romeo and juliet last night before going to sleepy bye..mercutio is cool! haha hes crazy but he dies =/ had a talk with ing last night about the mother..blah..hmm yea just felt like being random and blogging..buh byee!
soo everything with my mom is supposed to be getting better right?..WRONG. everything went from being good to okay to bad to worse. i dont know whats up with her lately..it just seems that everything i do or say is stupid. i feel like i cant do anything right when it comes to her expectations..i dont know what she wants from me..she makes it seem like im an irresponsible daughter who goes out and breaks all the rules that they set on me..but im not even doing anything..and i just dont understand whats going on anymore..she says she doesnt know what to do with me anymore..i dont even know what i've done thats so wrong..i hate that it seems like i could never be what she wants me to be..what am i just a big disappointment? wtf did i do wrong..i seriously dont know anymore..i really thought that everything was getting better..im doing good in school and all i get from her is you dont even study blah blah blah you never do your homework..wtf if i didnt study then it would show up in my grades..i just feel like shes taking EVERYTHING out on me..im trying my best to be patient with all this but i dont know how much more i could take..godd i just really need..i dont know what i need..i need my love. i love you and i miss you so much. buh bye
--11:20 AM
♥naevon