06.07.2005
dead
dear diary;
im so gdamn bored! hm yea ive been on myspace all morning. still am. got bitched at in the car this morning. bleh dont feel like talking about it. going to make me start crying. anyways last night was interesting. marcrizzle shared something with me. yes. hmm what else oh yea mom thought i was on the phone with jars all night. hence why she thinks im tired today. when actually i got the phone with him at 930. pretty damn early i should say. talked to marcrizzle til 1045ish then showered. i need to sleep. i feel so dead right now. i just really need to see him. im on the verge of just breaking down. i need to get away for a bit..
JUNE 10 2005.
okay so tell me why stupid diaryland lets you edit old entries but not add new ones?! fucking crap. haha anyways yes last night was a very sleepless night. i was pissed cuz my best friend cant sleepover then dad was being a batch about me going to her house. i was going crazy on the phone with cooper. whining and shit i normally wouldnt be doing. so i am here at home. stuck. wow thats so totally new. i was going to go to the movies today but no couldnt ask dad because he was in a bad ass mood all afternoon. so screw that idea. sick of this bullshit with parents. trying my best to get past it. dont know what to do anymore. i need a serious break from my house. from my parents especially. i love them but i just cant stand them. yea so im just going on and on here making no sense at all because i dont know what im fucking thinking. damn ive been swearing too much lately. seems like its the only way to get my frustrations out. ive been crying a lot lately too. too much on my mind. need to clear all this out. maybe i'll go for a walk down to the train tracks. i just want to yell at someone right now. grr so getting past all that anger and frustration maybe today i might be able to see marcrizzle after all. hopefully my dad brings sab home so i could go to her house later tonight. i need to get out of the damn house and not go to my moms work. sick of that place. been there too fucking much. mind my potty mouth pls. ahh screw this shit. im going to go do something productive. hm like clean my room? i need to get a fucking life.
lets be english for a day and say "fancy a fuck?"
--12:34 PM
♥naevon