07.12.2005
finally my angry side came out.
dear diary;
so sunday, all i did was think about this one thing, how the fuck do you get over someone in just one fucking week?? that seriously baffles me. i dont get it. then i thought about it s'more last night. i talked to chelle about it and came to this conclusion, hes not over me yet because if he was then we would be cool and talking as friends now. isnt that true? if you are really over someone you could at least be friends with them. but i guess he isnt yet. well whatever to you dude because i can handle shit more than you can. yea my bitter/hate side came out this weekend. i thought about him as a person a lot last night too and realized that he cant be alone. which is probably why he did what he did. well i hope he's happy. cuz i know im pretty damn happy with my life right now.
so anyways yea i still havent talked to him. well actually im just waiting for him to talk to me. oh yea btw this is a different "him" haha godd boys boys boys, ya'll give me a headache. lol but i love you to death so whatever. im just sitting and waiting ever so patiently. hey at least i finally told him (: and well im not ready for a relationship just yet. im taking things slow. i dont know how many times ive said that before but yes im taking everything slow and steady.
ahh okay so i finally talked to him. kind of. but whatever so anyways yea its all good (: jason is one of my best friends. he is awesome. we're friends and nothing more. hm for now cuz you never know what'll happen in the future. i love ya dude :p arrite im going to go take a walk in the hot hot heat. yes im gonna sweat. haha goodbye.
so i feel like being random, i miss kissing. haha yes i do. i wanna kiss a boy but not just any random boy. lol duhhh im not one of those party girls who make out with everyone they see. pshh nope im not that kinda girl. so its really hot. i walked kookie for about half an hour and i just couldnt take the heat anymore so i practically ran home. haha i got home and i stripped down (yea it was that hot) ;p i turned up the fan and locked my door and layed down on my bed butt-nakey well not really butt-nakey but close enough. hahah yea okay im gonna go watch degrassi and talk to my marcriz. gooooodbye kidds.
--10:43 AM
♥naevon