August 01, 2005
im sick of this bullshit.
dear diary;
im so irritated and tired of everything and ahhhhhhh people. thank you so much for cutting me off from you. thats very considerate after that email. and it was very considerate of you not to reply back. GROW UP, get a SPINE. talk to me, i dont care if what you have to say will HURT me, as long as you TALK to me. i do care about what you're going to say but you dont say that youre going to do something then disappear for a while and decide not to say anything anymore. thats just being hypocritical of everything you said. i dont know if you still need your time. but dont just cut me off. thats running away and it doesnt solve anything. you cant runaway from your problems. you've got to face them head on. dont be afraid, its just me after all. so i just realized something, you're doing the same exact thing that i was doing with my parents. you're afraid of confrontation. just step up and say your shit. dont stoop down to my level and be chicken. you're just being a hypocrite by doing this. seriously tho, dont say stuff that you dont mean and dont say that youre going to do something and then not do it. i learned that the hard way.
aslkfasjldfjlajsdf. another thing thats been bugging me. thanks for NOT CALLING to tell me that you werent going to the party. thats not cool. you couldve at least called to say oh sorry i cant go because i dont have a ride or whatever. i would have understood because duh i do live far away. so the least you could have done was called. AT LEAST some people apologized and said they wouldnt be able to make it.
asljfljasd people suck. yea im in a bitchy ass mood right now.
edit;
i hate feeling like this; alone, rejected, unwanted. ive never felt so alone. i know i have people around me who love and care about me yet i still feel so nonexistant.
--4:17 PM
♥naevon