August 07, 2005
and i cant fight this feeling anymore.
dear diary;
yesterday, hum how to classfiy that. first off it was random and out of the blue. totally wasnt expecting that. but it was just like old times. nothings changed. haha hes still the same old jr. dorkiness and all. okay not dork in the nasty sense. :p dirrty minded people. anyways yea it was just a fun talk. then last night i had a dream about him. i woke up with a big ass puddle of drool on my pillow and that normally happens when im in a deep sleep or having a good dream. uh oh its coming back. ever so slowly. no rushing things pls. no rush. i dont want to get my hopes up. so lets just take things nice and slow. << that sounds so dirrty. haha :p
well my headache is just getting worse from sitting here typing. im going to go lie down.
goodbye loves.
so i havent talked to some people in a long ass time. reason, because i strongly dislike having to be the person who always calls. if they wanna talk to me then fine they can call me this time. as much as i wanna talk to them i dont feel like it at the same time. i think that sounds a little bitchy but i dont know its just how i feel. i cant help it. makes me feel like no one even cares anymore. thats just fucked up. oh the stupid things that people to do to annoy me. sorry if im coming off as a bitch.
moving on. summers winding down and thers about 3 weeks left to party on down. i've pretty much done everything i wanted to do the entire summer. minus bonfire+stowlake. still waiting on those. but the summers been awesome. got to hang out with maricris more than the usual. ive seen that girl at least once every week. [: i met a lot of great people at work. im definitely thinking of working during the school year. so yea my life been pretty predictable. no drastic changes. well besides the surprise i had yesterday. [: that made me happy.
--9:43 AM
♥naevon