August 08, 2005
too good to be true?
dear diary;
so im feeling rather mixed up. just a tad. i dunno i just hope im not setting myself up for getting hurt. i dont want to set my expectations too high and get my hopes up and then everything just comes crashing down. bleh okay no more looking at this negatively. i'll just be satisfied with what i have. but im utterly confused. and yea i question, is this too good to be true? i hope not. [: but i do have to say im getting those damn butterflies, again. what can i say, he has that effect on me. hum yea i miss him.
god i hate it when i let things get to me. why, oh why do i always do that? i never used to. but lately it just seems thats all i do. bleh im overthinking things, again. i just need to be happy and smile because everything is dandy. okay im smiling now just at the thought of the past. hah im an idiot. im going to leave before i say something stupid.
goodbye
//edit»6:19 PM
so im sitting here at the computer once again. and its funny to look outside and i can see the big line of fog. but its nice and sunny here [: its like the fog doesnt cross that border. haha weird. so im thinking about taking a walk to the park. maybe i'll catch the sunset? someone made me really wanna go watch it because its so pretty. i wish i lived on the beach. that would rock. i love being near the water. [: hm i so want a beach house when im older. if i can afford it. hah.
it be crazy if marcriz and i ever lived together. that would be, hectic. but awesome. hm they say that you dont really know someone until you live with them. well i think spending a week with cooper should cover us on that part. i can handle living with that girl. as long as she cooks for me im good [: haha i'll do the cleaning since im the fucking neat freak between us two. hah. yea i really needa learn to cook, cooper you better teach me! haha
okay enough of my random updates. gooodbye [:
--4:18 PM
♥naevon