May 12, 2007
its been a while..a VERY long while.
dear diary;
well hello diaryland. its really been a while since i've last updated this. mostly due to the fact that no one reads this, well i think. whatever tho. so what made me reall update was reading through all my old entries. one really struck me. and this was that really long letter to jr when i was hella pissed about the whole break up and everything after. and after reading it i thought wow i really thought i was in love. but when it all comes down to it, it really wasn't love at all. i said he was my first love and that again isn't really true because in reality it was Jason. well at least thats what my journal says. haha. but yea i wouldn't really call what i had with jr love. at the time i thought it was because i was really attached. now i know what love is, as cheesy as that sounds. its someone who is always there for you no matter what. its someone who cares for you and understands you even though they don't have to. its someone who will go out of their way to put you before themselves. its someone who will call you beautiful even after you have been crying for an hour over something stupid. its someone who doesn't make you cry and is there to comfort you when you are. its someone like Jason Munoz. he's the one i can really see myself having a future with. it's been one year and 2 months of happiness for me. i really coudn't ask for more in a boyfriend. we have something special that i want to hold onto forever and ever. im completely satisfied with my love life at this point. i'm seriously one happy girl. [: i love you babe.
--12:48 AM
♥naevon